Amindofherown

One look could kill

Thu, 14 May 2009 20:13:51 GMT

I am seriously thinking about how much more easy my life would be if I didn't have any friends.
I'm not saying I don't want be to get along with me, but I really do think everything would be a whole load easier without the lies, the bitches, the secrets, the chatting-behind-her-back thing.
I just don't why people cannot grow up, and gain some maturity?
Is it that hard? Eugh

Or even, you know...
Wait, I'm loosing my track.

I'm listening to a certain song, and it's also in a movie.
I'd also pretty enjoy my life with just you and you. Good friends, you know? Boarding school. Uni. Whatever .. I think it'd be kind of cool.
I guess you have to see the movie to appriciate where I am coming from. Hmm

Let's open a can of woop-ass

Sat, 18 Apr 2009 21:29:06 GMT

But I can't spell it out for you
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I can't spell it out for you
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way
It could be the same for you
We can make this last forever
So please don't stop the rain
Cause on those nights we would never fall
Together we would face it all

"I want something that says Elegant. But at the same time incredibly Slutty and Avaliable. In fact I'm not that bothered about Elegant."

And you don't even have a clue

Thu, 16 Apr 2009 20:46:14 GMT

When I'm with the people whom I care about
When I'm with the people who care about me
When I fell free
When I feel alive
When I feel nothing else matters
When I don't need to lie
When I don't need to care about feelings
When I forget about my troubles
When I can be honest on just about anything

I've told another lie today

This awkward silence makes me crazy

Sat, 11 Apr 2009 19:56:48 GMT

Pick me up now, I need you so bad
Six bottles went down the drain
With all of this I know now
Everything inside my head
I'm always wanting you
And all again I wait for this
But I'm always wanting you
Please let me know that my one bad day will end
At times like these
It's obvious
Stuck in reverse
Tears stream down your face

I've felt the bite, take a spit

Wed, 08 Apr 2009 17:33:07 GMT

I love the feeling when we lift off
I love the dreaming when I think of the safety in the clouds out my window

If we shuddenly fall should I scream out or keep very quiet and cling to my mouth as I'm crying

So frightened of dying
Relax yes I'm trying
But fears got a hold on me

I can feel my heart beating as I speed from the sense of time catching up with me

I close my eyes as my hands shake and when I see a new day

I picture my own grave 'cause fears got a hold on me

I live on the right side I sleep on the left

See the lights, see the party
You were throwing pebbles

All there's left to do is run

Escape this town for a little while

And now this feeling is spreading like a disease

Tue, 07 Apr 2009 20:55:45 GMT

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back

I won't regret running away from here

Fri, 03 Apr 2009 22:22:52 GMT

Thanks for everything...

Always looking down

Tue, 31 Mar 2009 19:53:46 GMT

You actually do hate me don�t you?

Lying so I don�t come near you, lying to make me believe what you want me to think.

What is going on?

What is the problem?

Can�t you face just to tell me the truth? Or are you just incapable of telling the truth?

Ha yeah, things change honey. Open your eyes!
Might make a change. You aren't the only one, you know.
I'm gonna burn it down, yeah.
Never see you again.
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�I don�t know how to walk away from you, words that refuse to part from my lips, goodbye. Tearing from my insides, a shudder, a violent tremor of remorse, no. this is not allowed, these tears are tattoos how dare you disappoint them again, protect. Don�t pierce their precious little hearts, they�re crying for you, quiet. Quick, wipe your eyes and smile, I think they believe you�re fine, deceive.�

I think you'd laugh if you knew what is going on now. Right in my face.

It's time to make a move

Sun, 29 Mar 2009 19:59:20 GMT

I'll push you closer to the ground because you're the one going down

Sun, 29 Mar 2009 19:48:59 GMT

Once again, I'm sorry that I got angry. I'm sorry that I lost my cool. I'm sorry that I cried uncontrollably. I'm sorry that I ran out on you and I didn't look back once I did. You put up with so much. I'm sorry that I use you as my sounding board. I'm sorry that I take you for granted. But thank you for calling my name. Thank you for looking for me. Thank you for saving me. Thank you for loving me despite my faults.

Whenever I've had a bad day, all the bad things come to me in heaps. You can feel as if those bad things just come to you purposefully to fucking piss you off. It's as if the bad-luck-God is telling to me "In your fucking face, bitch!" It's also as if the bad-luck-God wants to make me feel so shit and depressed and wants me to kill myself.